Punctuality is the virtue of the bored. - Evelyn Waugh

I feel blank somehow. But in a good way... I'm still inside. Maybe it has something to do with the fact that... well, I've stopped myself from thinking. whisper Maybe it has something to do with the music swirling around me shiver

quiet

It's lonley to know that in five to ten years, everything that is important to me now, everything that keeps me running and everything that stops me in my tracks, will have receded and fallen by my wayside. Everything I love. Everything I hate. Everything I don't give a flying fuck about will have gone to dust inside me. And yet they will still have left lasting lasting effects on me. Effects that will mark me forever. I will base all my future decisions, whether conciously, or unconciously, on these things. But they will still be gone. Especially even if I remember them, the tangible parts will have changed and chances are I won't remember... what they used to be like... and that's the same as them being gone.

terrible change

And sooner or later its over...
Roxanne